Month #2

Month number one on birth control seemed to last an eternity!! I'm hoping this month goes a little faster and that my blood work will show numbers my doctor is happy with so I can stop taking it.  I haven't called yet to make the appointment, so I don't know when I will go.  It's long distance to call the office from a land line, and since we don't have long distance I can't call from my house.  AND our cell phone reception is terrible at our house, so I can't call from my cell either.  I literally have to get in my car and drive around the block if I want to call my reproductive endocrinologist.  How annoying?!?  

Nothing else exciting is happening...just waiting.  Story of my life for the past two years.  I don't know when the waiting will end, but it has actually gotten easier.  (I can't believe I actually just typed that!) Through this journey I've learned to trust in God more and that there is nothing I can do to change His plan for me.  No amount of kicking, screaming, or crying is going to change my situation.  Which is comforting because I know that He is in total control of everything that goes on in my life.  I mean, of course I have free will and the ability to make decisions and choose what I will and will not do, but God will still find a way to make His plans for me come to fruition, even if I make it difficult for Him!

"If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in Heaven give good things to those who ask Him!"  Matthew 7:11