Monday, December 3, 2012

A Year Ago Today

A year ago today I started this blog.
A year ago today I didn't think anyone would even read this blog, much less comment on it or follow it!
A year ago today I was certain that, "This time next year, I'll have a baby or at least be pregnant, and I won't be writing on this blog."
A year ago today I didn't think I'd actually be infertile.
A year ago today I didn't know some of the amazing people I've met in this journey: friends who've encouraged me and who I've been able to encourage and bloggers who I don't personally know but whose stories inspire me.
A year ago today I didn't know God's love like I do now.  I thought I did, but I had no idea.
A year ago today I didn't know I'd have days where my tears wouldn't stop and days when I couldn't stop smiling because of the peace and assurance from my Lord that a promised child is coming!
A year ago today I didn't love my husband like I do now.  Our relationship has only strengthened in this trial.
A year ago today I didn't think I'd STILL be taking Metformin.
A year ago today when my doctor mentioned using Clomid, I didn't think I'd actually ever use it.
A year ago today I didn't dream of making an appointment with a fertility specialist.  I didn't need that.
A year ago today I wasn't who I am now.  I'm stronger.  Better.  Infertile?  Yes.  Defeated?  No.

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