Taking a Break

With my not-so-great progesterone results and my missing period, we are taking a break from trying. Not that I still wouldn't be thrilled to get pregnant, but I'm not taking any meds to make me start my period or ovulate. When it comes, it comes. I'm stressed out with work and I don't need the added stress of creating life...or trying to. I wonder what it will be like to have spontaneous, romantic sex again? Haha!! We are just going to enjoy life together and be thankful for all the blessings that we do have. Now, we will eventually start this process again (taking meds, doctor visits, blood draws, tears, negative tests, etc.), but I think we will wait until after the holidays. And I'm actually excited about this. For once in the past year and a half, I don't have to worry about what my body is doing (or in my case, ISN'T doing). That's not to say that I still won't have days where I get emotional and cry when I hear Michael Buble's 'Just Haven't Met You Yet' :), but I hope to have less of those days since my focus will not be on trying to get pregnant.

One more thing I wanted to share. Today at work I was feeling frustrated with some things that were happening, so after I got all of my students taken out to the bus, I came back to my classroom to just pray. I remembered that I had a devotional book for teachers on my bookshelf and I picked it up to read. It has a devotion for every day of the year, and since I'm always super busy at work, I hardly ever read it. So I just asked God that whatever page I turned to would be the words that He wanted me to hear. I immediately got goosebumps all over my body as soon as I asked at, like He was saying ok (and the air was not on in my room, it was actually kind of warm, so the goosebumps weren't from that :)). I read this verse from Galatians 3:

"'The Lord is my portion,' says my soul, 'Therefore I hope in Him!'" (vs. 24)

I just wanted to shout 'YES!'. So I decided to read the whole chapter and I am glad I did. If you get a chance...read it! Even though we walk through tough times, God is still with us. He never leaves us alone. The very next verse (vs. 25) said, "The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him." He wants me to rely on Him and come to Him with my needs, desires, problems, requests, and even my complaints! He wants me to seek Him.

One last verse to end with, and it's one of my favorites!
"In this world you will have trouble, but take heart, for I have overcome the world." John 16:33