A Poem

I'm reading a new book, as recommended by a friend, called "Dear God, Why Can't I Have a Baby?" and felt led to write my feelings in a poem. This same friend who recommended this book to me also shared a poem she wrote, which really touched me. I am not a poet. This poem comes from deep in the hurt of my heart, and altough I understand that God does not owe me or have to reward me for doing good things, I can't help but to feel angry that this is not the case. Because I am a good person and I feel like I DESERVE it. And that's something I've got to work through, but in the meantime I'm sharing this poem. It's real, it's how I feel...

Why Not Me?

Every highschool cheerleader is,
but why not me?
They JUST got married,
so why not me?
She's not even working,
why not me?
I love you Lord,
so why not me?

All my friends on Facebook are,
but why not me?
They already have 3,
why not me?
She's a single mom,
so why not me?
I serve you Lord,
so why not me?

They abuse them,
why not me?
I'm paying for them,
but why not me?
She doesn't even want them,
so why not me?
I'm pleading and begging Lord,
please let it be me.